172. Losing It All to Gain Everything - ZofiaRennea Morales

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She started to lose her mind. She couldn’t remember things, a 30 minute meal would take her 3 hours to prepare, she couldn’t hold a job, she became bankrupt. This sounds like the framework for tragedy, but for ZofiaRennea it was fertile grounds for a massive transformation.

ZofiaRennea Morales is an intuitive, healer, and mystic, and she helps others learn how to lead their lives from their soul. Some topics we get into:

• Spiritual transformation and awakening.
• How her healing capabilities came to be discovered.  
• How all our experiences come into play in our bigger purpose.
• Is spirituality practical?
• The value of alternative perspective, and how that is different from the neutral facts. 
• What does your name have to do with your life plans?

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00:00.00
karagoodwin
Hello and welcome to the meditation conversation I'm your host Kara Goodwin and today I am joined by Sophia Renea Morales Sophia was living high life as an award-winning global strategist and Biophysicist. She had everything she could dream of until it suddenly screeched to a halt and left her in pieces she was brought to the edge of death. By undiagnosed chronic lyme disease and left bankrupt in every area of her life. She underwent a massive transformation which unlocked her gifts as an intuitive healer and mystic changing her life completely. So welcome Sophia I'm so excited that you're here.

00:58.41
ZofiaRennea
I'm so excited to be here with you. Thank you so much for the invitation.

01:01.55
karagoodwin
Yes, so I gave a brief overview of your transformation story but can you tell us more about what happened to get you to where you are now.

01:11.39
ZofiaRennea
Well I when I was very young. We'll start back in the day right? growing up I was very connected very dialed in and like I saw the hand of god in everything and at some point in my teenage years. You know you have these questions that you ask of yourself and some of them are very soul felt and this was a soul-f felt question and that question was why is it that there are people who can be atheists I don't understand how they cannot see. Hand of god in like everything happening around us and when you ask a question like that you get an answer and my answer was in the experience of becoming a very rational minded person 2 plus two equals 4 scientific method. It has to be replicatable. And you better show me the proof because I'm from Missouri kind of situation right? A show me state. Absolutely and I lived in that space for several decades to the point that it's like I don't see the hand of god anywhere.

02:10.72
karagoodwin
Oh yeah, the show me state. Yeah.

02:24.21
karagoodwin
But you did until then that's Richard's like a flip a switch flipped or something.

02:26.59
ZofiaRennea
I did yeah and when you ask those soul felt questions when you want to sincerely understand the experience. You'll have the opportunity to sincerely understand the experience.

02:40.59
karagoodwin
And embody it. Um.

02:43.16
ZofiaRennea
Yeah, and so I got that for several decades and then it was time for me to wake up and I have to say my soul gave me several subtle nudges before it came with the two by-four up the head. But I'm stubborn I was raised by a German and a Norwegian we are the home of stubborn and stoic.

03:00.66
karagoodwin
And.

03:02.14
ZofiaRennea
And so I was like blinders on I'm in this experience and that's what I'm going to do ah so the 2 by 4 became necessary.

03:05.81
karagoodwin
Ah. Okay, so how did that present for you. How did the 2 by 4 come in.

03:16.21
ZofiaRennea
Well I I will fast forward through a bunch of stuff which included mystery aches and pains starting to prematurely lose my compost menus I think they call it my my marbles were going.

03:32.94
karagoodwin
Um, a wow.

03:34.69
ZofiaRennea
I was having trouble finding words remembering what had gone on earlier in the day even short term stuff. You could tell me something and then I would turn around ask you the same question like I was you know ninety years old with dementia and here I am in my mid 40 s you know this is.

03:44.00
karagoodwin
Wow! really.

03:53.00
ZofiaRennea
There's something wrong here and I've been to a lot of doctors looking for what was wrong and I wasn't finding it and I was getting worse ah to the point that I couldn't hold down a job. In fact I couldn't go in the kitchen and make a simple 30 minute meal in less than 3 hours

04:08.30
karagoodwin
No kidding. Yeah.

04:10.32
ZofiaRennea
It was tear it well when you can't remember what you're doing. You have to kind of okay wait I'm in the kitchen. Why am I here. Okay, there's food laid out. It looks like I'm making you know chicken and rice. Okay, what stage am I at in the chicken and rice.

04:24.70
karagoodwin
Oh my goodness.

04:29.78
ZofiaRennea
And so yeah, when you're in that space is very hard to get something done and mystery why and as all of this is going on my husband's career is unraveling. Um, he's in pharmaceutical development and that.

04:33.85
karagoodwin
Wow.

04:48.73
ZofiaRennea
Industry has been through some major shifts and changes and so his job 10 years keep getting shorter and shorter and his unemployment keeps getting longer and longer. So all this is a recipe that eventually sends us down the rabbit hole of bankruptcy and he's in the middle of I need to.

05:02.81
karagoodwin
Wow.

05:07.22
ZofiaRennea
I need to get additional education to be able to take my career the direction I wanted to go so he's looking at do I get ah an Md do I get a juris doctor do I get an Mba. What do I do and. He's trying to figure all that out while the money is evaporating and when you're in bankruptcy they don't give you student loans and so ultimately we ended up in this situation where we found a way to send him back to school at the same time we're doing the bankruptcy and.

05:26.67
karagoodwin
Wow Yeah, right.

05:43.41
ZofiaRennea
He'd found a job on the other side of the country and we ended up living in a former neighbor's condominium that was her mother's her mother had passed and she was unable to sell it so we ended up as caretakers for that condominium for her.

06:00.17
karagoodwin
Um, wow.

06:01.48
ZofiaRennea
And so I'm I'm literally living on the grace of everyone around me and I went to the doctor and I'd found a functional medicine doctor I'd been through a lot of conventional stuff and they tested me for all the things for lupus for Ms for. Fibromyalgia The list is like really long and no one could figure out what it was I didn't fit in any of those buckets and I'm getting sicker and sicker and I can't sleep and my brain is deteriorating more and more. It's like I'm gonna die if we don't figure this out and so.

06:35.37
karagoodwin
Wow.

06:38.72
ZofiaRennea
Finally I got a diagnosis with this doctor and it was chronic. Lyme Lyme is a relative of syphilis when it gets advanced. It will eat your brain and so that's what was going on was it had gotten to the point it was attacking my.

06:49.10
karagoodwin
Oh my gosh. Wow.

06:57.77
ZofiaRennea
Neurological systems and it was ah a scary moment but also a moment where it's like okay at least I know what I'm dealing with and we can take steps to address it and so the doctor.

07:12.60
karagoodwin
Yeah.

07:16.90
ZofiaRennea
Was like the foremost lyme guy in that region of the country and he pulled out this this treatment plan that had all these exotic rotating antibiotics and and in in venous treatments and clearings and all of this stuff and I. Sat down on one of my better days with my calculator and managed to figure out that this was probably going to round around $24000 and so I called up the insurance company and I said look what. Portion of this will you be covering I gave them the diagnosis and what he had planned and their response was we don't believe in chronic lyme Yeah, Ah, you don't what there's lots of evidence for it. But you don't believe in it. Okay.

08:00.73
karagoodwin
Oh.

08:07.46
karagoodwin
Right.

08:09.61
ZofiaRennea
So we will give you sixty days of oral antibiotics full stop I'm like well the doctor visits will be covered right? and in the back of my mind I'm thinking it's another one of these questions you should never ask. Can they get any worse. Okay, how.

08:14.40
karagoodwin
Like.

08:24.31
karagoodwin
Ah, right? um.

08:29.35
ZofiaRennea
Does this get any worse. This is terrible right? I'm looking at $24000 in the middle of a bankruptcy and the lady on the phone says. Oh yes, your doctor's no longer in network.

08:41.59
karagoodwin
Oh my gosh.

08:44.26
ZofiaRennea
It's amazing. How fast the universe will answer these questions. Ah, and so I got off the phone with them and I'm like going through all the possibilities. My husband's full time in school working full time taking care of me. He's got no.

08:46.28
karagoodwin
Ah, right? wow.

09:02.90
ZofiaRennea
Bearcycl Steve and sleep let alone take on additional money making activities I'm like well maybe I could find a job but but I can't cook dinner in 30 minutes it takes me 3 hours I'm functionally unemployable right now and so it's like ah.

09:10.40
karagoodwin
Around.

09:16.83
karagoodwin
Um, and you had been in a prestigious job. Um, why I open.

09:20.72
ZofiaRennea
Oh and brain power galore and orchestrating really complicated projects and yeah then I'm reduced to I can't make a 30 minute meal and so I'm in this space of you know where how do I get out of this i.

09:32.53
karagoodwin
No, that's incredible.

09:40.52
ZofiaRennea
I see my answer It's right there and and if my arm was this much longer I could get it and it would all the world would start to come right again and I I couldn't see how it was gonna happen and I finally did something that I I didn't want to do. Which was I called my dad and I said look you know we're in a bad place. We're working on. You know, getting our way out of it and I have an answer to what's been going wrong with me physically. Um and I've got a plan I've got a doctor and a plan that's proven to work. But it's going to cost me $24000 because the insurance company's not going to cover any of it and the bank of dad was empty that day and that night I went to bed with my husband.

10:26.27
karagoodwin
No gosh.

10:32.70
ZofiaRennea
As mentioned previously I'm not sleeping so I'm just kind of laying next to him and trying to meditate and get what refreshment I can from that process which was of course less than optimal because when you can't focus. Ah you know the meditation and it isn't very smooth either.

10:44.89
karagoodwin
Um, yeah, right.

10:51.97
ZofiaRennea
But it got to about 3 am and my brain's like this trapped squirrel trying to look in all the places we've already been and thinking of is there another angle and what else is out there and I couldn't come up with anything nothing and I finally just. Collapsed in some way there. There was like this ego collapse that happened it's like I don't have the answer I don't have any way. It's totally beyond me and I did something I hadn't done in decades I said god. I will do anything to get better. And this little voice in the back of my head said really anything and I thought about that because anything is a very broad commitment and I said well I'm talking to god. God's not going to ask me to hurt anyone or cheat or steal or axe murder or anything like that and that those would be the things that would be my my edges. So I said yeah anything and I got my first miracle because I fell asleep.

12:00.17
karagoodwin
And.

12:09.82
karagoodwin
Oh how? wow.

12:11.30
ZofiaRennea
Something I hadn't done in quite some time and I woke up in the morning with this clarity that I needed to go back to the doctor's office. They'd already started me on the first set of oral antibiotics and the thing with lyme is when you kill it. It's more toxic than when it's alive. It's like you take these little bags of of poison and you open them up in your system and so you get a lot worse before you begin to get better and so my clarity was I had to go get a clearing iv because he had these clearing ivs that were like two hundred and fifty bucks

12:35.20
karagoodwin
Small.

12:48.83
ZofiaRennea
I have no idea where it's coming from but it was clear to me I had to go get 1 and so I went in for that and I'm sitting in the infusion room and the doctor walks through which is really unusual and I waved him over and said hey um.

13:01.80
karagoodwin
And.

13:06.14
ZofiaRennea
You know insurance is not going to be in the picture. What can you do for a cash papers and and he said you know if insurance is out of the picture we have this naturopath herbalist who has an amazing track record with parasites. Insurance would never cover him but his office visits are half of what mine are and he's got great success with the protocol that he uses like well office visits at half the price. Let's check him out right? Ah and so I got an appointment with him.

13:35.90
karagoodwin
Right? yeah.

13:41.93
ZofiaRennea
And I was sitting in his waiting room. It's always this string of like what I want to say we call them serendipities but they're actually carefully orchestrated events and as I'm sitting in his waiting room. There's this book on the end table that says emotion code on it and I bought.

14:01.50
karagoodwin
And.

14:01.10
ZofiaRennea
Welang but I've never figured out what to do with my emotions I was raised by a German in a Norwegian and the whole thing is stuff it down pretend. It didn't happen impress on regardless which is no way to deal with your emotional life and you know I'd had years of talk therapy and but.

14:11.55
karagoodwin
Ah, right right.

14:20.80
ZofiaRennea
There are still these places you can tell when you get triggered that there no healing has happened there. So I picked up that book I'm like if this person has the code to dealing with emotions I Want to know and so I started the book and then the owner of the book came back for it. So I'm like ah now I have to go buy the book. Ah so I I bought the book as I'm going through this process with the naturopath herbalist and one of the things that's in the book is about clearing your heart wall because we use trapped emotions.

14:40.53
karagoodwin
Yeah.

14:58.81
ZofiaRennea
In our body to try to protect ourselves in different ways and one of those ways is building a wall around your heart and I knew for a fact I had one of those because as I was going through life and. Like boyfriends and this kind of stuff. It was clear that there were people I let in behind that wall close to me and there were people that I did not so I knew for a fact I had one and I started to systematically take it apart following the instructions in the book and.

15:25.27
karagoodwin
And.

15:28.59
ZofiaRennea
As I'm taking my heart wall down I start having these experiences that ought not to be possible I start knowing things about the past and the future I start knowing things backstories of people in the grocery store. For example. You know every now and again, you'll see somebody in you. Why the heck are they doing that Well I would think that thought and then I would be showing why the heck they were doing that the events that led up to them making that choice and I was like ooh this is freaky deey and the scientist in me is.

15:57.16
karagoodwin
Really Wow yeah.

16:05.70
ZofiaRennea
Visually writing things off you know you've got this really vibrant imagination. You're making all of this up because you enjoy a good story. You know I'm writing all of this stuff off I I had speaking in tongues I saw Angels and.

16:21.27
karagoodwin
Wow.

16:23.61
ZofiaRennea
That kind of thing I put down to well you know your brain is being eaten up, but it's gonna do weird things and so I'm continuing to discount all of these psychic experiences and I came home from the grocery store one afternoon and my.

16:27.19
karagoodwin
Oh wow.

16:41.14
ZofiaRennea
84 year old neighbor is struggling under the weight of her 87 year old husband trying to get him into the house so we leave the ice cream melting in the car and you know rush over and get him in the house and she says I have to go make an emergency appointment with the kidney doctor. And so she rushes off to do that and I'm left with him in the living room and I'm like well how can I make you comfortable. He's like there are no comfortable positions and so I'm in the living room holding his hands and he closes his eyes and I see his lips moving and I know them to be very devout people and I realize that i'm. Basically voyeuristically watching this man have a conversation with god and it feels really uncomfortable to me in that moment because I just had my first one in several decades a couple of weeks back and so I close my eyes.

17:22.18
karagoodwin
Um, wow.

17:34.57
ZofiaRennea
And when I close my eyes I see this little flame in the middle of my mind's eye and it looks like a pilot light this sort of dancing on the edge before it goes and I'm given this understanding that that's where he's at right Now. He's hanging onto life with his fingernails and I haven't acknowledged who I'm talking to or any of that. But I I said inside of myself is there something we can do about that. And it flares up into this great big flame and at the same moment he drops my hands and looks at me and says are you a healer and I'm looking around to see who he's talking to because this is not anywhere on my radar of what.

18:21.00
karagoodwin
Um, yeah, um.

18:23.68
ZofiaRennea
And I don't know what to tell him and his wife comes back in at that moment and says we've got an appointment. We've got to go right now. So we hustle them all back out into the car and I go and hide in my house for two days as my scientist tries to write this off.

18:34.91
karagoodwin
A while.

18:41.14
ZofiaRennea
And discount it in as many ways as I can possibly discount it and after two days I'd managed to guilt myself into going next door and bringing them. You know a pot of soup and doing the neighborly thing and checking on him and so I go next door.

18:56.53
karagoodwin
Mm.

18:59.94
ZofiaRennea
She opens the door. Ah oh she has so many questions for you come on in like oh my I have no answers. Ah, and I stepped through the door and there he is kick.

19:09.77
karagoodwin
Ah.

19:16.10
ZofiaRennea
Back in his Barle lounger. He's got a drink at his elbow and his book and is remote looking fat and happy I like all right? Well how you doing he says pretty good. You know it was the most amazing thing. Yeah.

19:21.61
karagoodwin
Wow.

19:32.23
ZofiaRennea
I Got to the doctor they put me through all the usual battery of tests and my Kidney function came back normal I haven't had normal Kidney function in a couple of decades now like Wow Well, that's fabulous and we chatted for a while and I went back home and the scientist in me had to sit. Down it shut the fuck up because this was clearly part of the anything I had agreed to all of this psychic Knowings and the empathy and the channeling of healing. It's like yeah you said anything Guess what sweetheart we're bringing the anything.

19:53.80
karagoodwin
Wow.

20:09.78
karagoodwin
Wow.

20:12.40
ZofiaRennea
So that's how I became the sensible mystic. Ah.

20:14.45
karagoodwin
Ah, and so are you focused on healing with your clients or does it because I think it it goes um, healing in in a broader sense correct.

20:28.46
ZofiaRennea
It is in a much broader sense if you look at the roots of the word healing. It's about wholeness and so my clients tend to be people who have lost their wholeness in some way.

20:35.15
karagoodwin
Right.

20:43.40
ZofiaRennea
Whether it's that their heart was devastated in a really bad relationship whether they were attacked and traumatized in some fashion whether they physically have something going on illness wise or they just. Feel like there's something that keeps yanking them back from their mission and it's about bringing all of that wholeness back into place.

21:03.31
karagoodwin
6 right? So how can people lead from their soul. You know you you are doing that but it it was ah a you know, really winding road or or like a ah.

21:26.30
ZofiaRennea
And circuitous. That's kind of a really typical soul path is this circuitous thing. You know we have in our mind right? Our logical mind says we start here and we're going to take the most direct route to b.

21:26.86
karagoodwin
Roundabout is guy like point to me. Yes.

21:34.70
karagoodwin
Yeah, yeah.

21:41.60
karagoodwin
The linear path.

21:43.20
ZofiaRennea
Which is our goal. It's going to be linear is going to be straight and broad and clearly marked and it's the farthest thing from the truth it. It's all kinds of weird left turns and roundabouts. But.

21:46.32
karagoodwin
Right? And it'll be great. Yeah, right right.

21:59.12
ZofiaRennea
Don't tell yourself if you've been on one of these winding roads that you're off track or that you've wasted time because the truth of the matter is everything you have experienced everything you've done everything you've learned will all come to play ultimately in your final mission. Now some of it might seem like it's mashed potatoes and ice cream mixed together. But we're each uniquely gifted with the skills the talents and the experiences. Most importantly, the experiences that we need.

22:23.54
karagoodwin
Ah.

22:35.58
ZofiaRennea
To be able to relate to the people who we're here to serve and to serve them at our highest capability. So. It's no mistake that I spent a great deal of time as a premed. It's no mistake that I spent time as a scientist. It's no mistake that I spent years in Data Center management it's no mistake that I went into financial management and it's no mistake that I became introduced to this broader world of shamanistic hands-on channeling of healing kind of world because it's all to come together.

23:07.71
karagoodwin
Yeah I love them right? and I I Love what you're saying I mean I've been there too. You know I had a fast-paced career young kids I was on a bunch of committees and had a lot of responsibilities. And I've I've definitely had periods in my life where I felt that spirituality would have to wait. You know I was interested in it and I was interested in like any material on it. But it was kind of like a hobby um and but I had a very logical you know left.

23:35.37
ZofiaRennea
Let me.

23:43.21
karagoodwin
Brained approach to life very attuned to my senses like the physical senses and that's what I trusted and what's so funny is that what you're saying about how it serves you Ultimately I mean I I run across people like you who are like me.

23:46.54
ZofiaRennea
Okay.

24:02.40
karagoodwin
So often who have that kind of Science. You know who who really appreciate that scientific approach and that groundedness and who bring that groundedness but also have a connection to the other side and experiences with the other side and this you know bring this mystical and it. It offers a different kind of validation for people who have not started yet to experience those kinds of things. It is so serving to have that kind of background because just like you're saying so beautifully. The people that you attract on your path you know and the people that you serve.

24:38.44
ZofiaRennea
Yeah I call it walking with a foot in both worlds and so you're kind of straddling and the truth of the matter is as much as on a spiritual journey. We kind of look at the ego of our personality as the enemy. It's not.

24:40.40
karagoodwin
Absolutely Yes, absolutely.

24:58.30
ZofiaRennea
The enemy. It's a tool right? and it's a matter of learning to use that tool properly and when it's required not when it's not required and it's not required more often than it's required. But that's not what we're raised to understand. We're raised to understand that you need.

24:58.98
karagoodwin
In.

25:06.36
karagoodwin
Yeah. Um.

25:17.10
ZofiaRennea
You know to have that healthy strong aggressive ego out there. The world will take advantage of you and the world will serve that to you if you want to go through the world that way but it is possible to take off your armor and not send out that warrior vibe and still be protected.

25:33.83
karagoodwin
Absolutely yeah, um, and I know as well that you talk about how spirituality offers really practical tools to solve problems and so let's talk about that because. Spirituality and practicality don't always go together really you know, easily? um because so often we do segment our lives. You know it's like this is what you know is. But if we take an example of like traditional church. You know it's like I go to church on Sundays from. You know ten to eleven and that's my like god time and then the rest of the time I live my regular life and then I wait until it comes back around again and then I have and.

26:09.85
ZofiaRennea
Okay. Exactly and a lot of times we check our spirituality at the door when we walk out, you know which is it is horrifying to me but there it is.

26:21.28
karagoodwin
Right? And if it can be why but it can be the same even like with a daily meditation practice where it's like okay that's the tune. That's when we get attuned and then we get up off the cushion and it's like okay now I'm gonna go you know and and. You know, let my emotions get the better of me or whatever you know as we are on our our own learning journey and things like that. But um, that it can feel like it's 2 different facets of our lives. You know that don't necessarily go together all but all that easily.

26:52.70
ZofiaRennea
Yes, well and it can be very challenging because we're taught we are raised and cultured and taught that this rational mind this western approach to life. Is the way to be and anything that's outside of that is wrong or bad or crazy or whatever label you want to put on it and the truth of the matter is we are multifaceted Beings. We have a physical aspect. We have a mental aspect. Have an emotional aspect and we have this spiritual connection to all things aspect and in the west we're taught to very closely compar to mentalize that or completely give give away that last part and as we are a creature of many levels. As I just mentioned problems can have their root cause in any 1 of these 4 levels and so if you've been having a problem of the body. Okay, and you've been to every conventional doctor out there. You've tried every thing. I would invite you to consider that your problem with your physical body may not be arising from your physical level. It might be arising from an emotional experience. It might be arising from some mental programming. That's not serving you. It might be arising from an experience you contracted to have on the spiritual level. Okay, and when you work with somebody who's only focused on one of these levels. You know a guy with a hammer. Everything looks like a nail. Even though it's a screw. Okay, so when you're running into these moments where it's like okay I've been to all the psychologists and I still have this thing happening. Well, it's maybe not on that mental level. It's maybe not even on the emotional level. This might be something that's physically happening. This might be something that's spiritually happening and you need to expand who you're looking at to be able to identify that root cause and fix it.

29:06.25
karagoodwin
He.

29:12.68
karagoodwin
Right? Yeah, so how how do you help your clients find that gold within their lives despite pain that they've experienced you touched on a little bit but like are there are there kind of.

29:24.59
ZofiaRennea
Ah.

29:30.81
karagoodwin
Methods or tools that you like to use to help.

29:30.82
ZofiaRennea
There are a lot of things that we use around finding that gold. But 1 of the most valuable ones is that alternative perspective right? because we get into this story that we've created for ourselves around what's happening. And I know a lot of people will hear that and go oh no, what happened to me is this fact and this fact and this fact and yes, you do have a set of facts that are in fact there and irrefutable. But there is also a story woven into those facts we give meaning to each of these facts. We take them from neutral pieces of information and we weave a story around them and so what we do is we take a look at what that story is that you're telling yourself and then we also look at what has happened what has opened up for you as a result of that series of facts. Because I will use my own story as an example I had a series of things that happened to me I caught lyme disease when I was very young I was undiagnosed for years I chose to spend an excessive amount of time with the standard medical community i. Married a man whose career had ups and downs in it. Okay, all of these are facts. Okay, that ended up with me in a bankruptcy and you can look at that and go oh my god what a terrible life. You've had. Because you've had all of these trying things happen or you can look at it and say okay what opened up for me as a result of going down this journey as a result of going through this journey I have an amazingly strong tried and tested marriage with my partner and. I have this confidence with him that I'm not going to get kicked to the curb. Whatever it is that happens we can face it because by god we have been through the fire. Okay I have this amazing I'm in this amazing space now where I walk in both worlds.

31:29.27
karagoodwin
Right.

31:39.15
ZofiaRennea
And that would not have happened if I hadn't had the spiritual 2 by 4 up the head. Okay I am I do things now for a living that I love whereas before I was watching my watch. Are we there yet. Is it retirement age yet can I retire early.

31:43.43
karagoodwin
And is.

31:55.92
karagoodwin
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31:58.90
ZofiaRennea
And so there are a lot of amazing things that came from going through all of that drama and trauma and so we sit together and we unpack it all and having that third party perspective is super helpful.

32:05.33
karagoodwin
Yeah.

32:14.58
karagoodwin
Yeah.

32:16.11
ZofiaRennea
The other thing that we do is we look at your sole contract. Okay, because we decided what it was. We were coming here to do. We decided what we wanted our personalities to be. We decided about the people we wanted around us to give us those experiences to give us the opportunity to build our strength and to grow and all of that. Um, and it helps sometimes to understand what your lesson plan was.

32:40.90
karagoodwin
And so do you have access to that like through the cache or it's something that based on the the information they give you you kind of can cobble it together.

32:50.22
ZofiaRennea
Okay, um, the Akashik records are not this thing that sit off there you know far distant that only a few people can get into we all access the Akashi records on a daily basis at a super conscious level whether we realize it or not and.

32:55.94
karagoodwin
Right.

33:09.56
ZofiaRennea
Your lesson plan is the vibration of that is encoded in your birth name It's no accident that your parents named you Kara you sent that desire to them which is why when parents are looking at baby names. You know there are millions of suggestions from friends and family and all these people around but the parents only ever seriously consider 1 or 2 and the reason they only seriously consider 1 or 2 is because that vibration holds the lifelands that you came here. Experience and so every time you introduce yourself to someone. You're basically saying here's my karmic plan serve me the experience that I'm here to have I'm a people watcher.

33:55.46
karagoodwin
He.

33:59.71
ZofiaRennea
And so if you've ever spent time at the Dmv and many of us have done a great deal of time at the Dmv whether we like it or not I'm a people watcher so I will watch people and if you watch the interactions with like a particular clerk you will notice that.

34:03.38
karagoodwin
Um.

34:16.65
ZofiaRennea
Clerk will serve a different experience to each of the people that comes to the window and so with one they may be very helpful. They might you know cut them a break or or you know move them through a loophole or something and then like the next one they're like rigid.

34:19.85
karagoodwin
Um.

34:33.67
ZofiaRennea
You have to have this, you'd better. Go get this and you are you know out the door with nothing for your 3 hours of waiting and that has to do with the clerks super self accessing those akashic records and going what experience am I supposed to serve this person today.

34:38.48
karagoodwin
Yeah.

34:53.10
ZofiaRennea
Not done on a conscious level 98% of the time.

34:56.10
karagoodwin
So that being said though, um, it's happening on a super conscious level and of course a lot of people are not able to access consciously their super conscious information but are you is that and for people who can access the superconscious.

35:05.35
ZofiaRennea
Yes.

35:12.74
ZofiaRennea
There is a super super simple way to actually get to what your birth name is but yes to get to the lessons that are encoded in there. It's It's called a sole contract readings and it's a.

35:15.67
karagoodwin
Looking at all. To get to what your birth name is okay.

35:31.25
ZofiaRennea
Ah, process that was channeled through by Frank Elper in I believe the sixtys something like that and basically you take the vibration of your name in english it gets converted into numbers 1 through 22 because that's the number of. Sounds that are available in the hebraic al but alphabet and then those numbers get laid out on a star of David and you total them up. You reduce them down the way numerologists do if it's a 2 number it becomes one that sort of thing. And you get these ranges of experiences that speak to what it is. You're here to experience.

36:13.14
karagoodwin
Oh Wow So it's It's very practical I mean.

36:17.81
ZofiaRennea
As's very practical is very learnable. You don't have to feel like you're gifted in any way to learn how to do this but I suspect you will discover. You're gifted as you go through the process.

36:23.63
karagoodwin
Ha.

36:29.30
karagoodwin
Ah.

36:31.24
ZofiaRennea
Because it does have a tendency to open you up to higher levels of information.

36:34.89
karagoodwin
Wow. I love finding these little gems of like new I mean I love that the the interplay between frequency and numbers and sound and and like something so personal as a name. Um, it's fascinating because I I have I mean this is brand new to me I've never heard of this but I know that I have had opportunities to change my name I mean I did take my husband's name like my last name is I was married into but my first name I've had different. You know, opportunities or or points in my path where it's like you know people are changing their names. Um in different organizations and it never really spoke to me. Um I never I never felt that urge to change mine and then over time. I've come to understand my name in particular holds. Um, you know sounds I mean ka and raw are are the first 2 sounds of creation I mean I didn't know that until rather recently from the spectrum of this life. So um. So that when I found that out like as I kind of processed that I was like that's really interesting that I never felt that desire to release myself of my birth name. You know.

38:00.88
ZofiaRennea
Isn't that interesting and some of us never liked our names I hated my name from the first moment I didn't like it 1 bit I didn't like the genericness of johnson okay, which was my my last name growing up.

38:05.89
karagoodwin
Enough.

38:13.80
karagoodwin
Oh ah.

38:18.28
ZofiaRennea
Ah, because I grew up in Minnesota if you open the phone book. It's like Abc J okay because they're all Johnson right? And so I didn't like the anonymity of that I hated my middle name and my first name was kind of like okay.

38:24.54
karagoodwin
Yeah, right? Yes, right.

38:38.10
ZofiaRennea
And so when I learned about the sole contract work and reading the contracts I also learned about renaming yourself to empower yourself differently.

38:48.73
karagoodwin
Um, oh wow.

38:50.60
ZofiaRennea
And so this is 1 thing that I do offer for clients. It's something that I also offer for people who have businesses if you have a business that's not going and you've done all the things it might be worth looking at the energies in that name and see if that's part of what's holding you back.

39:06.11
karagoodwin
And so it is your birth name Zophia Renea oh

39:09.34
ZofiaRennea
No sophia Renea Morales is what was given to me in meditation and initially I I went in and I went well what are the energies of that and I spelled it very traditionally like with an s and a p h. And it's like that is not that doesn't match the vibration of what I was given and I sat with it for 2 years before the it occurred through someone else. This wasn't even an occurrence that happened through me that it could start with a z.

39:31.63
karagoodwin
How.

39:42.69
karagoodwin
Aha.

39:45.35
ZofiaRennea
Oh oh well, you know and then all the pieces fell into place. It's like that. That's it. That's the name I was given.

39:54.39
karagoodwin
That's so interesting because I assume because you've been talking about your the birth name. So I assumed it was your birth name but I was like I'm surprised you don't like that name because it's like really ah, such a full name. Okay.

40:01.47
ZofiaRennea
Yeah, no I Love I Love my spiritual name. That's what I consider it is my spiritual name as opposed to my mundane name. Ah yeah.

40:12.60
karagoodwin
But then the the modality that you're talking about with the start of David that uses the birth name.

40:17.73
ZofiaRennea
While you start with the birth name you can use that same modality to analyze any of the other names that you have taken on or been given right because a lot of people will give nicknames and frequently nicknames are.

40:27.44
karagoodwin
I'm cu. And.

40:33.40
ZofiaRennea
A way to try to empower disempower you um, depending on on who's giving it and the energy it comes in but frequently it's ah, a disempowerment if you think about nicknames a lot of them are always diminutions. The name gets smaller.

40:35.58
karagoodwin
Really.

40:52.92
ZofiaRennea
It gets an an I or an E or something on the end that makes it a little lighter and sometimes pushes it over into frivolous right.

40:59.70
karagoodwin
Um, oh this is so interesting too I mean so Kara is my birth name but I for the first twelve years of my life I was called carrie k a r I I mean from.

41:13.40
ZofiaRennea
Um, yes.

41:18.45
karagoodwin
From birth so like my birth certificate name was Kara and then but my name but no one ever called me that and then when I was in Seventh grade I felt like I wanted to step into this grown up name of Kara for me, it was like this formal.

41:21.98
ZofiaRennea
But no one ever called you that.

41:35.17
ZofiaRennea
Coming of age. Yeah.

41:38.20
karagoodwin
Grownup name. Yes, but I never considered because that was the name I got when I was in trouble growing up. You know it was like if I had right? Yeah so yeah, full name and my real legal name. You know it was like if I was doing something I wasn't supposed to do that was the name I got so.

41:41.89
ZofiaRennea
Oh yes I had the whole all of it right? ah.

41:56.54
karagoodwin
I had this negative connotation with it for a long time and it was like this random conversation with my aunt where she was talking about how much she loved the name Kara and I never considered it. In that way and then I kind of heard it with these new ears of like somebody loves that name and I was like actually it is a really pretty name and and then also it was like a more like I said you know you're 12 you're like in entering that coming of age and it was kind of like the self termation thing.

42:23.60
ZofiaRennea
Yeah, the the self determination phase. Yeah.

42:28.61
karagoodwin
Yes, but it was a lot of work to switch it over because I had all the you know at that age all and everybody. Oh yeah I mean I was picked on and teased like oh what's your name today you know and all this kind of thing.

42:34.30
ZofiaRennea
You got to fight everybody? yeah. Oh god.

42:46.34
karagoodwin
And I just carried on with it. But um, but it's really funny how like you're saying that and I'm I'm like remembering this. It's not something I've thought about in a long time. But yeah, there's so much like counter. Yes, how.

42:55.98
ZofiaRennea
Yeah, it was about you reclaiming the power of that name.

43:04.85
karagoodwin
Fascinating and now like I Really don't feel connected to that name at at all. Even though there are still family members who who still call me that you know cause it's just yeah, what? what? my name has always been to them. But um, gosh you've given me so much insight.

43:12.72
ZofiaRennea
Um, yeah.

43:24.60
karagoodwin
This is just fascinating. Um, so I know that you you have ah an appointment coming up here. Tell us how people can connect with you and find out more. Oh yeah, yeah you, you've opened a.

43:33.11
ZofiaRennea
Oh I Love the find out more part of that invitation beacon. Yeah yes, um, ah there are a couple of ways you can find out more the first one let me look so I spell everything right.

43:41.79
karagoodwin
Pandora's box here I'm sure for a lot of people.

43:52.25
ZofiaRennea
Ah, the first way is you can learn more about your own giftedness by going to superpower quiz us I created a little quiz that will show you one aspect of the major gifts that you brought with you and so it.

44:08.22
karagoodwin
Is that based on name. Oh you love so many tools in your thoughtboard out Nay all right.

44:11.57
ZofiaRennea
It is not based on name. Actually we we came at it from a different direction on that one. Um and so superpar quiz us it takes about 60 seconds so there's no excuse for not like going and doing that right now and. When you ask for your results. It'll put you on my email list which will you know, get you in the know on everything that goes on so that's 1 door you can go through and it's it's a fun one I have to say um the other door you can come through if you're like you know what? I don't want to waste any time I want to sit down and talk to her about.

44:39.55
karagoodwin
That.

44:48.68
ZofiaRennea
This thing that's happening right? now you can book a free coffee chat I do a 20 minute consult where we look at what's going on and I can suggest different aspects of ways that we can move whatever it is through with you. A lot of my clients have these things that happen every time I always get the bad boy or whatever it is I always come out on the wrong end of the medical odds you know and some of that kind of Stuff. Can't wait so you can go to book http://zophiacoffychat.com.

45:08.40
karagoodwin
Um, and yeah.

45:21.95
ZofiaRennea
So Zophia Z O F I a book Sophia Coffeechat dot com and it'll get you on my calendar for one of those little conversations and then we'll just see where it goes from there.

45:32.50
karagoodwin
Oh beautiful I'll have those links in the show notes too and you mentioned you have a podcast too right.

45:37.50
ZofiaRennea
I do it is called sovereign self and you can find that at sovereignself live. There is a new episode that goes live on Mondays at four o'clock and right now we're we're in a little bit of a hiatus but that'll pick back up in a couple of weeks here in April. And yeah, it's it's wonderful. We have all kinds of folks who come in and talk about their journeys because a lot of times when we're waking up especially early in our journey. We feel like we're the only one who's going through this shit and while all of our journeys are unique. They do rhyme.

46:09.77
karagoodwin
Yes, right? yeah.

46:16.11
ZofiaRennea
And so sometimes it's helpful to hear what someone else has gone through because it will give you new perspectives and other ways of of working through whatever you're running up against so that's why we do it.

46:26.60
karagoodwin
Beautiful, wonderful. Well thank you so much for coming on. It's been really a joy to connect with you today and and thank you for the work that you're doing in general too.

46:40.36
ZofiaRennea
Yes, thank you so much for having me and thank you for holding the space and creating the platform that you're creating as well for people to be heard and to get their message out as well. It's super important.

46:51.73
karagoodwin
Thank you so much. Thank you.

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